THAT was Tom's great secret — the
scheme to return home with his brother pirates and attend their
own funerals. They had paddled over to the Missouri shore on a
log, at dusk on Saturday, landing five or six miles below the
village; they had slept in the woods at the edge of the town till
nearly daylight, and had then crept through back lanes and alleys
and finished their sleep in the gallery of the church among a
chaos of invalided benches.
At breakfast, Monday morning, Aunt Polly and
Mary were very loving to Tom, and very attentive to his wants.
There was an unusual amount of talk. In the course of it Aunt
Polly said:
"Well, I don't say it wasn't a fine
joke, Tom, to keep everybody suffering 'most a week so you boys
had a good time, but it is a pity you could be so hard-hearted as
to let me suffer so. If you could come over on a log to go
to your funeral, you could have come over and give me a hint some
way that you warn't dead, but only run off."
"Yes, you could have done that, Tom,"
said Mary; "and I believe you would if you had thought of it."
"Would you, Tom?" said Aunt Polly,
her face lightingwistfully. "Say, now, would you, if you'd
thought of it?"
"I — well, I don't know.
'Twould 'a' spoiled everything."
"Tom, I hoped you loved me that much,"
said Aunt Polly, with a grieved tone that discomforted the boy.
"It would have been something if you'd cared enough to think
of it, even if you didn't do it."
"Now, auntie, that ain't any harm,"
pleaded Mary; "it's only Tom's giddy way — he is
always in such a rush that he never thinks of anything."
"More's the pity. Sid would have
thought. And Sid would have come and done it, too. Tom,
you'll look back, some day, when it's too late, and wish you'd
cared a little more for me when it would have cost you so little."
"Now, auntie, you know I do care for
you," said Tom.
"I'd know it better if you acted more
like it."
"I wish now I'd thought," said
Tom, with a repentant tone; "but I dreamt about you, anyway.
That's something, ain't it?"
"It ain't much — a cat does
that much — but it's better than nothing. What did you
dream?"
"Why, Wednesday night I dreamt that you
was sitting over there by the bed, and Sid was sitting by the
woodbox, and Mary next to him."
"Well, so we did. So we always do. I'm
glad your dreams could take even that much trouble about us."
"And I dreamt that Joe Harper's mother
was here."
"Why, she was here! Did you
dream any more?"
"Oh, lots. But it's so dim, now."
"Well, try to recollect — can't you?"
"Somehow it seems to me that the wind
— the wind blowed the — the — "
"Try harder, Tom! The wind did blow
something. Come!"
Tom pressed his fingers on his forehead an
anxious minute, and then said:
"I've got it now! I've got it now! It
blowed the candle!"
"Mercy on us! Go on, Tom — go
on!"
"And it seems to me that you said,
'Why, I believe that that door — '"
"Go on, Tom!"
"Just let me study a moment —
just a moment. Oh, yes — you said you believed the door
was open."
"As I'm sitting here, I did! Didn't I,
Mary! Go on!"
"And then — and then —
well I won't be certain, but it seems like as if you made Sid go
and — and — "
"Well? Well? What did I make him do,
Tom? What did I make him do?"
"You made him — you —
Oh, you made him shut it."
"Well, for the land's sake! I never
heard the beat of that in all my days! Don't tell me there
ain't anything in dreams, any more. Sereny Harper shall know of
this before I'm an hour older. I'd like to see her get around this
with her rubbage 'bout superstition. Go on, Tom!"
"Oh, it's all getting just as bright as
day, now. Next you said I warn't bad, only mischeevous and
harum-scarum, and not any more responsible than — than — I think it was a colt, or something."
"And so it was! Well, goodness gracious!
Go on, Tom!"
"And then you began to cry."
"So I did. So I did. Not the first
time, neither. And then — "
"Then Mrs. Harper she began to cry, and
said Joe was just the same, and she wished she hadn't whipped him
for taking cream when she'd throwed it out her own self —
"
"Tom! The sperrit was upon you! You was
a prophesying — that's what you was doing! Land alive, go
on, Tom!"
"Then Sid he said — he said — "
"I don't think I said anything,"
said Sid.
"Yes you did, Sid," said Mary.
"Shut your heads and let Tom go on!
What did he say, Tom?"
"He said — I think he
said he hoped I was better off where I was gone to, but if I'd
been better sometimes — "
"There, d'you hear that! It was
his very words!"
"And you shut him up sharp."
"I lay I did! There must 'a' been an
angel there. There was an angel there, somewheres!"
"And Mrs. Harper told about Joe scaring
her with a firecracker, and you told about Peter and the
Painkiller — "
"Just as true as I live!"
"And then there was a whole lot of talk
'bout dragging the river for us, and 'bout having the funeral
Sunday, and then you and old Miss Harper hugged and cried, and
she went."
"It happened just so! It happened just
so, as sure as I'm a-sitting in these very tracks. Tom, you
couldn't told it more like if you'd 'a' seen it! And then what?
Go on, Tom!"
"Then I thought you prayed for me — and I could see you and hear every word you said. And you
went to bed, and I was so sorry that I took and wrote on a piece
of sycamore bark, 'We ain't dead — we are only off
being pirates,' and put it on the table by the candle; and
then you looked so good, laying there asleep, that I thought I
went and leaned over and kissed you on the lips."
"Did you, Tom, did you! I just
forgive you everything for that!" And she seized the boy in
a crushing embrace that made him feel like the guiltiest of
villains.
"It was very kind, even though it was
only a — dream," Sid soliloquized just audibly.
"Shut up, Sid! A body does just the
same in a dream as he'd do if he was awake. Here's a big Milum
apple I've been saving for you, Tom, if you was ever found again
— now go 'long to school. I'm thankful to the good God
and Father of us all I've got you back, that's long-suffering and
merciful to them that believe on Him and keep His word, though
goodness knows I'm unworthy of it, but if only the worthy ones
got His blessings and had His hand to help them over the rough
places, there's few enough would smile here or ever enter into
His rest when the long night comes. Go 'long Sid, Mary, Tom — take yourselves off — you've hendered me long
enough."
The children left for school, and the old
lady to call on Mrs. Harper and vanquish her realism with Tom's
marvellous dream. Sid had better judgment than to utter the
thought that was in his mind as he left the house. It was this:
"Pretty thin — as long a dream as that, without any
mistakes in it!"
What a hero Tom was become, now! He did not
go skipping and prancing, but moved with a dignified swagger as
became a pirate who felt that the public eye was on him. And
indeed it was; he tried not to seem to see the looks or hear the
remarks as he passed along, but they were food and drink to him.
Smaller boys than himself flocked at his heels, as proud to be
seen with him, and tolerated by him, as if he had been the
drummer at the head of a procession or the elephant leading a
menagerie into town. Boys of his own size pretended not to know
he had been away at all; but they were consuming with envy,
nevertheless. They would have given anything to have that swarthy
suntanned skin of his, and his glittering notoriety; and Tom
would not have parted with either for a circus.
At school the children made so much of him
and of Joe, and delivered such eloquent admiration from their
eyes, that the two heroes were not long in becoming insufferably
"stuck-up." They began to tell their adventures to
hungry listeners — but they only began; it was not a
thing likely to have an end, with imaginations like theirs to
furnish material. And finally, when they got out their pipes and
went serenely puffing around, the very summit of glory was
reached.
Tom decided that he could be independent of
Becky Thatcher now. Glory was sufficient. He would live for glory.
Now that he was distinguished, maybe she would be wanting to
"make up." Well, let her — she should see that
he could be as indifferent as some other people. Presently she
arrived. Tom pretended not to see her. He moved away and joined a
group of boys and girls and began to talk. Soon he observed that
she was tripping gayly back and forth with flushed face and
dancing eyes, pretending to be busy chasing schoolmates, and
screaming with laughter when she made a capture; but he noticed
that she always made her captures in his vicinity, and that she
seemed to cast a conscious eye in his direction at such times,
too. It gratified all the vicious vanity that was in him; and so,
instead of winning him, it only "set him up" the more
and made him the more diligent to avoid betraying that he knew
she was about. Presently she gave over skylarking, and moved
irresolutely about, sighing once or twice and glancing furtively
and wistfully toward Tom. Then she observed that now Tom was
talking more particularly to Amy Lawrence than to any one else.
She felt a sharp pang and grew disturbed and uneasy at once. She
tried to go away, but her feet were treacherous, and carried her
to the group instead. She said to a girl almost at Tom's elbow — with sham vivacity:
"Why, Mary Austin! you bad girl, why
didn't you come to Sunday-school?"
"I did come — didn't you see
me?"
"Why, no! Did you? Where did you sit?"
"I was in Miss Peters' class, where I
always go. I saw you."
"Did you? Why, it's funny I didn't see
you. I wanted to tell you about the picnic."
"Oh, that's jolly. Who's going to give
it?"
"My ma's going to let me have one."
"Oh, goody; I hope she'll let me come."
"Well, she will. The picnic's for me.
She'll let anybody come that I want, and I want you."
"That's ever so nice. When is it going
to be?"
"By and by. Maybe about vacation."
"Oh, won't it be fun! You going to have
all the girls and boys?"
"Yes, every one that's friends to me — or wants to be"; and she glanced ever so furtively at
Tom, but he talked right along to Amy Lawrence about the terrible
storm on the island, and how the lightning tore the great
sycamore tree "all to flinders" while he was "standing
within three feet of it."
"Oh, may I come?" said Grace
Miller.
"Yes."
"And me?" said Sally Rogers.
"Yes."
"And me, too?" said Susy Harper.
"And Joe?"
"Yes."
And so on, with clapping of joyful hands
till all the group had begged for invitations but Tom and Amy.
Then Tom turned coolly away, still talking, and took Amy with him.
Becky's lips trembled and the tears came to her eyes; she hid
these signs with a forced gayety and went on chattering, but the
life had gone out of the picnic, now, and out of everything else;
she got away as soon as she could and hid herself and had what
her sex call "a good cry." Then she sat moody, with
wounded pride, till the bell rang. She roused up, now, with a
vindictive cast in her eye, and gave her plaited tails a shake
and said she knew what she'd do.
At recess Tom continued his flirtation with
Amy with jubilant self-satisfaction. And he kept drifting about
to find Becky and lacerate her with the performance. At last
hespied her, but there was a sudden falling of his mercury. She
was sitting cosily on a little bench behind the schoolhouse
looking at a picture-book with Alfred Temple — and so
absorbed were they, and their heads so close together over the
book, that they did not seem to be conscious of anything in the
world besides. Jealousy ran red-hot through Tom's veins. He began
to hate himself for throwing away the chance Becky had offered
for a reconciliation. He called himself a fool, and all the hard
names he could think of. He wanted to cry with vexation. Amy
chatted happily along, as they walked, for her heart was singing,
but Tom's tongue had lost its function. He did not hear what Amy
was saying, and whenever she paused expectantly he could only
stammer an awkward assent, which was as often misplaced as
otherwise. He kept drifting to the rear of the school-house,
again and again, to sear his eyeballs with the hateful spectacle
there. He could not help it. And it maddened him to see, as he
thought he saw, that Becky Thatcher never once suspected that he
was even in the land of the living. But she did see,
nevertheless; and she knew she was winning her fight, too, and
was glad to see him suffer as she had suffered.
Amy's happy prattle became intolerable. Tom
hinted at things he had to attend to; things that must be done;
and time was fleeting. But in vain — the girl chirped on.
Tom thought, "Oh, hang her, ain't I ever going to get rid of
her?" At last he must be attending to those things — and she said artlessly that she would be "around"
when school let out. And he hastened away, hating her for it.
"Any other boy!" Tom thought,
grating his teeth. "Any boy in the whole town but that Saint
Louis smarty that thinks he dresses so fine and is aristocracy!
Oh, all right, I licked you the first day you ever saw this town,
mister, and I'll lick you again! You just wait till I catch you
out! I'll just take and — "
And he went through the motions of thrashing
an imaginary boy — pummelling the air, and kicking and
gouging. "Oh, you do, do you? You holler 'nough, do you?
Now, then, let that learn you!" And so the imaginary
flogging was finished to his satisfaction.
Tom fled home at noon. His conscience could
not endure any more of Amy's grateful happiness, and his jealousy
could bear no more of the other distress. Becky resumed her
picture inspections with Alfred, but as the minutes dragged along
and no Tom came to suffer, her triumph began to cloud and she
lost interest; gravity and absent-mindedness followed, and then
melancholy; two or three times she pricked up her ear at a
footstep, but it was a false hope; no Tom came. At last she grew
entirely miserable and wished she hadn't carried it so far. When
poor Alfred, seeing that he was losing her, he did not know how,
kept exclaiming: "Oh,here's a jolly one! look at this!"
she lost patience at last, and said, "Oh, don't bother me! I
don't care for them!" and burst into tears, and got up and
walked away.
Alfred dropped alongside and was going to
try to comfort her, but she said:
"Go away and leave me alone, can't you!
I hate you!"
So the boy halted, wondering what he could
have done — for she had said she would look at pictures
all through the nooning — and she walked on, crying. Then
Alfred went musing into the deserted school-house. He was
humiliated and angry. He easily guessed his way to the truth — the girl had simply made a convenience of him to vent her
spite upon Tom Sawyer. He was far from hating Tom the less when
this thought occurred to him. He wished there was some way to get
that boy into trouble without much risk to himself. Tom's
spelling-book fell under his eye. Here was his opportunity. He
gratefully opened to the lesson for the afternoon and poured ink
upon the page.
Becky, glancing in at a window behind him at
the moment, saw the act, and moved on, without discovering
herself. She started homeward, now, intending to find Tom and
tell him; Tom would be thankful and their troubles would be
healed. Before she was half way home, however, she had changed
her mind. The thought of Tom's treatment of her when she was
talking about her picnic came scorching back and filled her with
shame. She resolved to let him get whipped on the damaged
spelling-book's account, and to hate him forever, into the
bargain.